Vinification

The worst day of my career!

2005-12-23T22:43:00.000-08:00

24th December 2005
Yes on the 14th of December 2005, I was officially sacked by Wine Connection; ending my 6 months affair with the company. Sad? Yes I was because all the hard works by my staffs and me will sooner or later goes down the drain. Why? The assistant employed by Caroline was a total idiot and incompetent. Even worst was he started to use less of my brilliant part-timers and start to employ the fucking lousy one. Nothing against him, but he is just passing time trying to hop on to another job. Why was I sacked? Hmm..... Caroline can't event looked into my eyes and tell me the reasons why she want to sack me and keep mumbling throughout the last meeting. She claimed that I do not communitcate with her enough and I am not happy working in the Bar. I disagree because if I do not need to communicate with her why would I want to disturb her work. In fact in November and December, she is the one who avoiding me and refuse to communicate with me. Yes, I do not like certain things about the company but I enjoy working at the bar with my brilliant staffs and talking to the regulars of the bar. The company does not have a code of conduct causing the front line people facing a lot of problems rather that the company itself. A lot of the dealings are not truth to the consumers.
Well, what gone is gone and I do not like to look back because I have my life to carry on. All I can wish is that Caroline starts to learn how to treat people with respects if not Wine Connection will not grow. I just hope that my staffs are being treat with respect that they deserve from Caroline although I already know that she did not.
Right now, I am planing my own wine bar which I hope to materilise soon because then it will give me an idea of what I expecting next year. For me, this is chasing my dream, grab it and do it.

Sunday 6 Nov 2005

2005-11-10T09:11:00.000-08:00

11th November 2005 1.30pm
Hmm.... the title is a date? It is because on this day, I actually do not need to do the bar @ Wine Connection (ouch thus losing my salary). Why? I went to watch a concert; Lisa Ono's concert at Singapore Expo and I could not find any senior part-timers to work on Sunday for me so I closed the bar at 6pm. (Ouch!)
I have been waiting for so long to hear Lisa Ono to sing live since I started to listen to her CDs. As much as I want to go and watch her live, I will not do it alone unlike I watch movies alone. If I watch Lisa Ono alone, I am missing a lot of things. So I actually asked Ms L to join me which she took a while to say yes (I think she did not say yes to join me??) I almost did not dispense the tickets that I have booked but luckily I did not. I was suppose to be off on Sunday itself but Caroline did not approved that so I have to work in the morning. I actually was working till 3am on Saturday night and then went home to sleep at 6am and wake up at 10.30am in the morning to go to work. I am very tired and worst still the lunch was very busy till 6pm closing time (I think there was a play going on at SRT) Still managed to pull through in a piece after 5pm. I got changed for my date and went to pick her up at the pets' hospital (somewhere at Balestier) as she was accompany her friend. I frozed when I saw her (must write this feelings? Well blog is to write real feelings so I will not try to hide), she was gorgeous, beautiful in her white fashion sense. I seriously think that her boyfriend is a very lucky guy. I could not help but keep stealing stares at her (I doubt she will notice a ugly old peh peh looking at her) :(
We stayed for a while to accompany her friend till nearly 7.10pm and then we all made a move. Although we supposed to leave earlier to eat dinner but she wanted to keep her friend company and I am silenced by her beauty, we end up going straight to the concert. The seats that I have bought was not too bad though we really cannot see any of the face of Lisa Ono and her band. The air-condition was a little bit too cold but other wise everything is fine. The seating arrangement, lighting & sound system was so much better than Norah Jones concert that I watched in April. But still both of them sings well. I was really glued to Lisa Ono's live singing, she really does not sound Japanese at all. Although bassa nova is not the kind of music Ms L like to listen, I think she actually did enjoy herself. Both of us was really was amazed by one of the band member (the only other girl) as she keep changing her musical instruments as seem she can play the whole band herself. Lisa Ono sangs literally for the whole concert as she seldoms talked to the audience (which I think was a bit disappointing) and she also sang a chinese number, Yie Lai Siang (a very old chinese song). The audiences were quite vast diversity from all ages and work of lifes. The concert end around 11pm (I really hope it last longer because I have a great company although I not very sure she enjoys it) after the encore. I was wishing that she will said that she wants to go for a ride as she usually does but maybe because she have early class the next day, she wants to go home and rest. She stays in west and I took about 20 minutes to send her back from Singapore Expo although I wish the journey is longer but still it comes to an end. I wish the time will stop and let me have a look at her beauty for longer time but still the time end. After dropping her off, I thank her for accompany me to this concert that she may not like in the first place and wished her a good night. Although she is not my girlfriend but I really think that whoever is her boyfriend must be a real lucky guy because she has great personality and she is beautiful. God is fair and I think God has already someone in mind for her. Taking from mastercard advertisment;
New shirt for the date = $89.00
Petrol for the journey = $25.00
Price for the Tickets = $200.00
Your Presence = Priceless
Thank you Ms L.

Story - Part 1

2005-11-03T07:28:00.000-08:00

3 November 2005 1 a.m
I suddenly feel the urge to write this story.
He is a middle age man who has been in and out of troubles; who slogs for his life so he can gives his mother and daughter the best; that does everything for passion.
She is a young undergrad studying and working in the same time. Both of them are from different worlds, poles apart but two wheels bring them together.
He was once a gangster who terrorizes people, chain-smoker since the age of 13 years old, and a heart-broken man who did not recover from his bitter divorce. He yours average Joe looking guy, never consider handsome or charming. He never finished high school due to his old rebellious ways and had already stepped into the society to work at the age of 15 years old to support his own lifestyle. He is very crazy about mountain bike to the extent that he can actually spend more than half of his salary on mountain bike.
She is a beautiful, educated English speaking Chinese who never short of admirers. Clever and also a sport woman who loves to swim, jog and most of all mountain biking.
He has taken more than 10 years to climb to where he is now all through hard works and hard knocks. He is a loser when it come to relationship matter; he got hurts badly before and he had hurts someone else as well. He was badly hurt to the extent that he shut himself away from any possibilities of a relationship.
She comes from a well to do family and has a boyfriend who is also from a rich family. Her boyfriend is in fact one of the hottest male sportsman in Singapore representing Singapore in national events. She does well in her studies with prospect employers already waiting to employ her once she graduates. She has such a great look, short hair well-tanned skin and unique look linking her to those gorgeous Brazilian models.
He is her manager at her workplace whereas she is his best assistant even though she is just a part-timer. Although he is the manager of the bar, he is a very hand-on person going on the floor and sweat with his staffs. He likes to know everyone of his staff by name and because of this attitude; he is very popular with his staffs and most of them (part time or full time) in fact have been with him for a while. In fact, he is the one who interview her, Patrizia as his supervisor was on leave during that time. She has left him a very deep impression; while exhbiting her confidence she also let her low self esteem shows. She shows the willingness to learn but was a bit of withdrawn as well....

Fish

2005-10-27T07:00:00.000-07:00

28th October 2005 6.40 a.m
Can't sleep well (I am very sick for the first time in 3 years) so I decided to write this blog. Hey sorry Fish so now this is a section all on you, ok!
Biyu aka Fish occasionally sotong or stingray; why? Sometimes she gets so blur with her work that she will not realize her mistakes till late or she fights back when she is being provoked. She has been working with me since the days of Sistina (I still can remember the interview of Wendy and Fish very well as they asked a question that nobody ever have asked me before; "Can we dye our hair?") She has grown up from a teen to a young adult during the last 3 years although most of the times she behave more like a young kid (she is). From a very green horn to an pretty young gal (she said she not pretty), from someone who do not know about the world to someone who can speak about general knowledge. I understand that she choose to study sport and wellness on her objection of her mother, hmm.... she knows what she wants and will try her best to achieve it. Remind me of when I chose to study SHATEC against the will of my parents. I hope she will hang on to the belief and reason why she want to study this subject. She has a differnet beauty from the rest of the gals who are working for me. Loretta remind me of Karen Mok or Kirsten Dunst while Fish remind me of Sandy Lam. Although Sandy Lam is not a stunning beauty but she has a look that will last. I am very sure that Fish will not have problems with suitors just like Loretta.
I am very happy that after leaving Sistina, we finally get to work again at Wine Connection. Fish, Loretta & Adeline has contribute much to the success of Bar @ Wine Connection. Without them is like I have lost my arms and legs. Thank you gals.
Well, I wish Fish the best in her study and go on and achieve what she set to do.

Loretta

2005-10-09T00:26:00.000-07:00

9th October 2005
Hmm....a whole section about Loretta? I have no idea why I want to write about her and what can I really write about her?
She only started to work with me in Wine Connection about 3 months ago when Adeline and Fish introduce her to me. My first impression of her....pretty gal without a smile, quite confidence in herself but yet low self-esteem and strong will gal. She left a very good impression on me and that why I employ her straight away. Although she has experiences in other places, I told her that she still need to get used to the way I work before I will pay her more. Over the months, she had proved herself that she is capable when she is on song although sometimes small mistakes. (I hope she will not continue to make mistake leading to $ loss as I have been paying her mistake) Still she has convinced me that she deserve more. I really hope she develop an interest in our industry because I believe with a little guidence, she will soar in the industry.
She just walked in and I glad that she did not see this :)
After getting to know her better, I found out that she like motorcycle and she is taking her license now. Although I have no problem with gal riding bike but I only want to know whether is she sincerely want to ride a bike because she loves bike or just for cheap transport. She had convince me that her passion for biking is as hard as titanium. I wish her the best.
I like to write more things about her but suddenly my head is block, can't think much.
She has confidence in her dress-up thus making her actually very attractive. That the reason why most of my customers like her a lot (she don't really believe it). I do find her very attractive especially I like short hair gal (she looks great with short hair) and gal who like motorcycle. I glad most of my staffs do not know that I write a blog :) if not there will be an uproar. Shh... Wendy, you have to be quiet.
She is so popular with the guests that the other day she receive a beautiful bouquet of lily (one of my favourite flowers). So jealous was Caroline, that her face turned into charcoal when she found out that the bouquet was not for her. I bet she must be very popular with lot of guys in her school and will be even more when she starts to work in the society. I hope she get over her break-up and start to show the beautiful smile of hers.
Will stop here for now and continue some other day.

Finally!

2005-10-07T23:18:00.000-07:00

8th October 2005
Finally, I have chance to sit down and write my blog since July. Where have I been for the last few months? No where, I am just to busy with Wine Connection to the extreme that I did not really have time to write my blog. So am I free now to write my blog? Not really, I am alone in the shop, waiting for Loretta to come and release me for my break. I very much like to do the sales report but the moment I read those bills last night, my eyes are starting to close; not the right condition to do paper work. Too busy and too tired last night and I still need to come early to do the opening.
Well to cut the missing months short, I really have to be brief on my writing. (I can't really remember much though - old man already) The business for Wine Connection grew leaps and bounds; from $20000 first month to $65000 on the third month and still growing. Hopefully by the sixth month we can reach $100000 per month. A lot of hard work have been put in by Caroline, all my staffs and me. From an average of 4 hours work per day to now average 6 hours work per day, (the part-timers are earning more than me :( ) one can imagine the increase of work loads. I thank God that I have such a good team of part-timers to release my burden. Thank you to Loretta, Lydia, Fish, Adeline, Terence & Wendy.
Although Caroline and I did not really get along well, I am very professional on the working relationship and still treat her with some respects. (she needs to earn the rest of my respect) There is a change in the structure of our company with now the bar is consider on its own department and I am now offically in-charge of it. Although it is not what I really want but I am without a choice. I sure with the help of my team, Bar - Wine Connection will be the talk of the town! Will continue to write again.

First Day!

2005-07-01T23:25:00.000-07:00

1st July 2005 9pm
Finally, after days of preparation (breathing in dusk and sweating like hell), Wine Connection opened on the 1st July 2005. Although we can't serve any foods now but to drinks and retailing of wines is not a problem. Without any fanfare, we manage to sell some wines. (Great work!) It was a long day starting from 10a.m and I ended at nearly 12a.m. All the customers were walk in and sooner I hope it will be more of regulars. It is so strange that usually you have a stronger feelings when you start up the place than you just come in and work. I have been working to help setting up this place with Caroline (boss's right-hand woman or should I say girl) before my official date of employment. Although none of the design have my ideas (the design of the shop was already half-done when I first met Michael about 1 and half months ago), but as soon as Caroline has get rid of "Thailand mindset" I can really impose a lot of ideas. Still, I really like what both of us have dressed up the shop (of course not forgetting the help from Lydia & Fish for 3 hours). Both Caroline and I have interview a few candidates for the shop assistant and we are really impressed with a lady, Pam. She had excellent job experience although none is wine related, great attitude, megawatt smile and well-spoken English. I have offered her the job now waiting for her reply and I really hope she will accept the offer. I will call her again on Sunday to talk to her.
My trip to Shanghai, Face Bar was an eye opener although it is a very tiring trip. I took Thai Airways (cheapest air fare) transit through Bangkok and then to Shanghai, Pu Dong Airport. The whole flight time (through and back) estimated 17 hours including an hour and half delay at Bangkok (when on the way to Shanghai) and I have experienced one of the worst service from the Thai Airways staffs during my flight to Bangkok from Singapore. None of the personnels is really smiling and most of them had a long, black face and they are unwilling to serve. I will not stop flying Thai Airways because of this but just hope that some big shots will see this thread and rectify the promblems.
Hmm.... Face Bar Shanghai, an excellent chilled out place with a nice al fresco garden, a Thai restaurant, great Indian restaurant and beautifully decorated Face Bar. Mr. Alberto, the Bar manager and Jenny (I believe this is the spelling) showed great hospitality towards me. Mr. Alberto showed me around the neighbourhood, visit some of his friends (from Malaysia, Singapore, Indonesia), it really made me feel like I back in Singapore. Although I was there for only 2 days, I feel Shanghai has a great potential grow in the food and beverage industry especially truth for wine industry. What the people drinking over now is like what most Singaporean drink in the late eighties, early nineties. I have wrote a report to Mr. Haidi (the owner) about my feelings and what should be done in order to start the trend/make more money. The pay offered was also not great for an experience sommelier (I have to run all the outlets as well), so I had turned it down. I do hope that a better offer will come because I believe I can make a mark in Shanghai.
Right now, I am going to concentrate on my career in Wine Connection. I hope that with the first day indication, this Wine Connection will be a hit with many people. Cheers!

Judgement Day!

2005-06-18T03:15:00.000-07:00

18th June 2005 6.20pm
I have finally make up my decision who to work for after all the interviews/ chit chat session. Wine Connection will be the place I am going to work for and I hope to get all the support :p. My last chit chat session was with the Face Bar boss, Mr. Haiti (an Indonesian chinese). He was just trying to get to know me better and painting the picture of working in Shanghai. I actually do like his character, very frank, ah-beng style. He invited me to fly to Shanghai Face Bar and have a look and talk to the bar manager, Mr Alberto. As much as I like to fly there (it free), but I will only fly there if I want to work for him and I am not. His offer was not great but working in Shanghai is really a draw for me and if I do not have a housing loan to pay, I will pack up and leave. I will not take his advantage and fly there and then decide not to work for him. Now I am just looking forward to work with Wine Connection.
I have just left Gourmet Cellar as soon as I joined them. When Edward and Anne told about the plan, they actually hide a lot of things from not only me but other staffs as well. Up till now the place is not ready yet (already 2 months behind) and with the change of contractor in the middle of renonvation, I bet we can't even open Gourmet Cellar at the end of June (the target date). The are just too many problems for this big project. I only wish them the best and of course my apology.
I am now preparing for my new employer, Wine Connection at Robertson Quay and I want to make this place success just like Sistina (when my team and I was the players) and get my recongnition to get a better pay. I have promised the boss, Michael and will keep my promise.
When I was working in Zambuca, I stumbled a live performance cafe at Marina Square, Music Dreamer and always enjoy the live singing by the singers (ordinary people who sings better than Singapore Idols) from outside. I never have the chance to go in, sit down and enjoy it. Now as I do not need to work at night, I started to visit the place and have been enjoying myself. I very much like to introduce all my friends there (and anyone who enjoy live performance). The website is www.musicdreamer.com (I think so but the place is call Music Dreamer) You will not get to see the same performer every night so you will not get bore with certain voice. There are a few DJs who actually sings there. From the last few nights that I am there, I enjoy myself even though I was alone except for yesterday, I was with Joseph. I doubt he enjoys it but nothing I can do. Next, I will try to get Fish, Wendy, Lydia, Nicholle and my friends to go and support. It is also a very nice place to chill out if you do not like rowdy and smokey place as no alcohol on the menu and smoking is not allow. Although for the last few nights, the singers can't really sings songs from my era (not many can though) I still enjoy it and I believe a lot of people will.
I wondering how Nicholle is doing. I text her just now but there is still no reply. Hmm.... siting pillon on some handsome boy bike, I bet. The show Initial D will be starting next week and I have invited her before but not sure whether does she remember it? Will email to remind her but even if she forget or cannot make it, I will understand.
Better earn more money to fix or buy my PC.

Should I?

2005-06-12T16:20:00.000-07:00

12th June 2005 3.40pm
Never believe that I am actually at Marina South internet kisok (a new term I just learned) at this afternoon. I am here writing my blog because I do not want to risk writing my blog on my fuck up PC at home and then it get lost. Until I get my pay, I believe I have to rely on internet kiosk very often for my blogging.
Michael (Kelvin's boss) came back with an excellent offer that seriously I will be a fool to reject it. Not only the pay is good, I am in charge for doing a lot of things that I always want to do for a wine bar. It is baiscally my own show. As much as I like to take the offer, I have ask him for 5 days to think over it while he answer so of my queries. Now what should I tell Anne? Poh Choo (one of the 3 directors) and Anne has been very good to me but they are paying me so-so only. Worst is that I doubt they are going to pay the extra incentive as spoken during our conversation. I found this only when I spoke to Wynn (assistant manager) as he have not get any extra incentive for the last 4 months even though the buisness at DFS was excellent. I am suppose to be the manager for the retail shop but as days go by, I realized that they were going to ask me to do a lot of other things as well. I really do not mind doing as long as it is within my means and my free time but what pissed me off is that they should have tell me in the first place which they did not. I feel cheated. The more I see about the project, the less confident I am regardless that I like the idea a lot. It still boil down to the way and who should run the show. Over at Gourmet Cellar, there is no clear line drawn. As for the Face Bar, the interviewer did not come (maybe is next week) and the other interview that I had turned out to be Como Hotels & Resorts. It is one of the company own by my ex-boss, Mrs Fu (I believe). The Chief Operation Officer, Mr. Kuno is a friend of Mr. Alan Wong and he just like to get to know me better. Therefore the interview turned out to be get to know me session. I was fine with it because it will give me a better chance in the future when there is a vancancy. I am looking forward to meet up with Mr. Kuno again regardless whether for buisness or pleasure as I enjoy talking to him.
Why I am always get stuck in this type of situation. Can't the God give me a clearer picture? Whatever is the case, I am not slowing down anymore, I going to make it work whoever I working for. God bless me.
Should I learn from other bloggers to write some international stuffs and gain fame? I did think of that but I do not want to be caught in a situation where I can't get out of. Since I am specialize in wines, I will consider to write about my views on wines.
Can't wait for the next meeting with Nicolle hopefully before we go and watch Initial D. I bet she must be very busy with her new life in poly, but I bet with her intelligence and hard working attiude, she will do fine. I am now looking for all my fabulous part timers who want to work together again (be it at Gourmet Cellar or WIne Connection). Most of them have been informed about what I am going to do so it will sooner or later we will work together again.

More headaches!!!

2005-06-07T20:22:00.000-07:00

7th June 2005 8pm
Actually I have wrote this blog this morning (around 3am) using my fuck up PC but when I tried to publish it, it get lost (no idea why). That why now here I am in cyber cafe writing my blog.
I have started working for Gourmet Cellar already but now all the offers started to come and it is causing me headaches (even though it is a good one). The first two days in Gourmet Cellar was very boring as the place is still not finish renovation yet. I was driving the chefs around town to do market survey for the first day. We spent nearly 3 hours to visit Taka, Liang Court & Istean Orchard. And when I got back to the office, I just continued doing the wine list for the restaurant till 5.30pm. Today, I spent the whole day keying the datas for all sale items. A little bit more work than the first day but still it was very bored to face the computer for more than 5 hours. The renovation work is very slow and I really doubt that we can start the place on the 15th June. I am just hoping for the best. My poor Ducati had a flat tyre on the very first day which I hope it not because of the dented rims. My mechanic will only be able to tow my Ducati tomorrow morning. (*sigh* 2 days without my Ducati) I hope it is only just a flat tyre nothing else.
I have just met up with Kelvin's boss; Michael this morning about his new venture in Singapore. We had a long conversation about how things should be work, our individual opinions, my package, etc. I never expected this to be an interview therefore was not dressed up for the meeting, I hope he was alright about it although I can sensed his unhappiness about my dress code. I not very sure about his ideas will work out but I very keen to do something different if only I can start work as soon as possible. I met up with him even though that I working for Gourmet Cellar because I had promise Kelvin that I will speak to his boss. Let hope he will come back to me with a really good offer.
Another company with I still not very sure who called me this afternoon. He got my contact through Mr Alan (Thank you Mr Alan) and we are planning to meet this thursday morning. I will go for this meeting over my dead body because I have asked Mr Alan to help me in looking for jobs and this job offer could led me to overseas which I have long desire to go (even if the pay is so-so only).
The Scarlett Hotel still did not return my call so I assuming that I was not short listed for the second interview. Anyway, I believed that I have failed the interview badly (no idea why I was so nervous during the interview). There should be another interview from the Face Bar (China) for this week or coming week. Hmm... has my corner turn? I hope so. :p
Jaz was supposed to meet Nicolle and I last Friday for movie but it did not happened because Nicolle felt that if 3 of us went, 1 maybe left out. It ended that he watched with Zara at Cineleisure and Nicolle and I went to Bukit Batok cinema (my first visit there). We watched Cursed because both of us like to watch horror movies but I was amused by the fact that she covered her ears for most parts of the show (not sure whether did she cover her eyes). Hmm. she like to watch horror movie but yet afraid to be scare. Too bad, Cursed really failed to scare both of us and I was very disappointed with the movie. Next time, I must bring her to watch a more horror movie. Hehe... We went for chit chat at Bukit Timah prata shop after the movie. As usual, we talked basically anything under the sky. Well I get to know her slightly better from our chit chat session. I find that she is the kind of person who lives their life to the fullest, very crazy at times but is a sensible gal, a gal who will work hard towards her dreams, she is the kind of person who will not stop her heart for a bay easily. We were more relaxed on our second meeting. She did not really dress up and I just myself with my shirt tuck out and hair not combed. I really find her an interesting gal but do not know how to put words on it. She is actually quite sexy in my opinion although Jaz may not agree. I actually asked her out for the next meeting (can't believe that I actually ask a gal out). I want to watch the movie Initial D with her because I believe we will enjoy the show together. Maybe we will meet before that again (the movie start only on the 23rd June) as I promised her to bring her to Min Ge restaurant to listen to live performance who can sings so much better than any Singapore Idols. Let see when we are free again.

New Beginning?

2005-06-02T10:43:00.000-07:00

3rd June 2005 2am
I have just finished having late dinner cum supper with Jaz and Poulis and Ian in Holland Village. It been a while since we have supper together. Finally, Jaz had given up hope on the company as he had tendered his resignation (or has he?). He will be joining the company rivals Da Paolo. Actually, they have been asking him to join for the last 1 year but because Jaz like to learn more things from me, so he never want to leave Sistina (and of course the pay :p). But with Angelo taking over Sistina, everything has changed. Jaz will not be able to learn anything from the super suck up asshole - zai; who claim himself to be the District Operation Manager of PEMG. I never understand how come people like him can survive in the industry. I bet he should belongs to the clever and smart group of people. Why? It is because he put up such a great oscar performance in front of the bosses or the right people and get away everytime when there are shits. He better pray that he will not work under me or any of my friends in the future because he will be sack before he can start.
I was asking Jaz whether does he like to watch movie either Friday or Saturday since there are a lot of new movies in the weekend and of course I also told him that my new friend, Ms Biker said that he is handsome. Without hesitation, he agreed if she come along which of course I need to ask. Jaz cannot resist gals who say good things about him. Hehe... Let hope Ms Biker will be free this weekend. I also look forward to see this charming biker gal.
As everyone knows (is it? ;p) that I have been going cyber cafe to do my internet since I left Zambuca, I am now wondering is it really safe using a public PC to log in my email accounts. I been visiting 2 cyber cafe; one in Marina South and one in White Sand Shopping Centre. I have no problem with the one in Marina South but the one in White Sand is giving headache. I was told by Timothy that it is safe to use a public PC to surf the net as they will clear the history (somethings like that) after my use. But when I went back the 2nd time to White Sand to surf the net, to my suprise that my user id for all my accounts were saved, I freaked out even thought the passwords were not. Would my accounts be safe from hackers? I hope that no one has received nonsense email from me. If somebody does receive, please let me know. Thanks in advance.

Good things do not come alone?

2005-06-01T22:00:00.000-07:00

1st June 2005 9pm
Here I am, back in Marina South internet cafe doing my surfing. My PC has been fix but somehow it will automatically shut down and restart after a while in the net. Does not seems to be virus but not very sure. And I spoilt the dvd-rom will trying to install a new program which means I am now facing a computer which really can't do anything. It looks like I need to buy a new PC or notebook. *sigh* Even the network in the internet cafe is very slow today. After nearly 10 minutes trying to log into yahoo-mail, I still can't read my mail. I hope it will get faster if not my money will not be well spent.
While I understands that bad things always come in pairs or more, I never know that it apply to good things as well (I pray it true). While having my late lunch today, I received a call from China telling me that they are coming down to Singapore to conduct an interview. This call is like about 1 month late but its better than never come, right. I looking forward to meet the big boss. Although I have agreed to join Edward but if the chance to work in China really comes true, I will certainly leave Singapore. Just when I thought that was my only headache came another one; The Scarlett Hotel which I applied 2 or 3 weeks ago. Seriously, I never expected to get a call from them but since they want an interview, I believe I should not shut my door. Is this the answer to my prayers? I not sure about that but very sure that I going to pray at the temple and thank the Gods.
I am wondering how Ms Biker is doing since we parted? Must be very busy (she is studying nursing) with her school works. Kind of strange for a nurse to like motorbikes? Hmm.. not really as I do not see that a nurse cannot ride a motorbike or just like a librarian cannot listen to rock music. As long as she like, I think she should pursue her interest in both area. Wonder will she be free this weekend for a movie? She will sure make a good bike touring partner for any riders. Will she still get a Cagiva or other models when she pass her license?
I have not been thinking of her for many days as I tried to occupy myself with loads of work. I hope slowly I will keep her in a box and bury deep in my heart.
I hope that my break has finally come.

You never walk alone!

2005-05-30T06:44:00.000-07:00

30th May 2005 6pm
Have been enjoying myself for the last few days. Firstly, Liverpool finally won the European Cup after 21 years. And what a way to win it; coming back from 3 goals down at half time, scored 3 goals in the 2nd half and defend all the way to the penalty shoot out. My heart almost stopped a few time in the whole match but gladly it did not.
27th May was my 30th Birthday and all my friends from the restaurant help me to celebrate although I never like to celebrate my birthday. Thanks you gals and guys for spending time together and that lovely BMW motorcycle model (will never be able to afford it). Everyone was there enjoying themselves like our days while working as a team in Sistina. Thank you to Fish, Wendy, Grace, Mr. and Mrs Jaz, Joseph, Lydia. We went to watch Monster in law later. (Jaz lost the bet so we have to watch what the gals want; stupid Jaz) But well I enjoy the show a lot because of Jane Fonda. Man what a great perfomance she put in. Just by watching her in the role of monster mum worth your $8.50 ticket.
On last saturday, 28th May I went to meet my new friend that I call her Ms Biker whom I know from (or she know me first) internet. She the first i met from internet and what a date it turned out to be. I pick her up at her house at Yew Tee and went to drink coffee at Great World City. We talked mostly on bikes and I can feel she is really in love with motorcycle. I bet a lot of male bikers will love to have her as their girlfriend. She has great look not the pretty kind, good humor, outgoing personality which will suit most male bikers. well that basically all i can detect from our first meeting. She was kind of cute in my opinion as I never come across a gal (even back in my gangster days) who like to watch horror movies, the dangers involving motorcycling, etc. Can't wait to see her riding her bike when she pass her license in ???? I bet she will enjoy watching the Motor Grand Prix in Kuala Lumpur in September. I do hope to see her there cheering. Very much like to go out with her again as I enjoy her company (not sure whether does she enjoy an old man company) especially to watch horror movies and a young gal who knows about Dave Wong. Dave Wong was at his prime during my secondary school day which I believe she is only a toddler. I not sure whether does she knows his very first few ablums which I think not many young people will like. Next time when we meet, I gonna test her hehe....

REDS!

2005-05-26T00:00:00.000-07:00

25th May 2005 11pm
Another few more hours to the Champion League final between AC Milan & Liverpool. Can't wait for the match to start. Who do I root for? Looking at my title, you can guess; its Liverpool. As much as I love Italy & Italian soccer, I am supporting Liverpool for this clash. Go Liverpool, go Liverpool.... Hmm.. where should I go and watch the game?
Last Sunday, my good friend & soul mate & brother, Timothy got married. I so happy for him that finally he found the other heart to share all his happiness and sorrows. My blessings to you, Mr & Mrs Tim. It was also a great time that I finally catch up with the rest of the gangs; Mr & Mrs Sean (Christine was our secondary school classmate), Mr & Mrs Edwin Tan, Mr & Mrs Stanley Ho and last Mr & Mrs Patrick Poh. Everyone is doing well in their life and career except me. It looks like I need to buck up. I met up with Lionel today since I was near his office. Another good friends who is going to be a father of a baby boy soon. Congrat bro.
Tomorrow I will meet up with another good friend, Chang Sheng aka Ah Gu. Why? Because he is so strong & big size like a bull. Suddenly, I really feel like I have missed out so much in my personal life after slogging like a dog for PEMG (my ex company). How I wish I can really know how to balance my life & works. Is it possible? I not sure about other industries but in F&B, a sure no unless you are a GM or the back office personnels. I have tried many times but it just won't work.
I have been thinking for the whole day today. If I keep thinking of her, my life will not be able to move on, so I must try to lock my thoughts on her in my heart not head. Thinking of her when I am not working, relaxing and writing my blog. Is that possible? Even if not, I must try. She have too much of an impact on me. I wonder does she really keep the flower that I sent it to her like she promised. I went to her friendster profile and now she change her status to "in a relationship" which means that the guy with that 125cc Aprilla must be her new boyfriend. I hope for this time she will take the relationship seriously. My blessing to you, dear.

Another night in cyber cafe

2005-05-24T21:53:00.000-07:00

24th May 2005 9pm
My PC still not ready yet so have to check my mail in cyber cafe. I have been visiting the cyber cafe (should I rename it since it is not a cafe) at Marina South. Some may ask why go all the way there when a neighbourhood cyber cafe is available. Few reasons; after surfing the internet, I can play games especailly the new virtual strikers which is very hard to find in other entertainment center. Secondly, the cyber cafe opens till late in fact, I believe it opens 24hrs. Therefore I can come anytime I want. And since I need to run my Ducati, I take the journey to Marina South.
I was asked by my friend, Brad to help him in assessing some wines from california this afternoon. Man, the wines are only sub-standard quality for the kind of price. I bet most wine drinkers will choose Australian wines instead. I just hope he will not distribute the wines.
I have called up the Scarlet Hotel for an interview and have just sent my resume to the person in charge. I hope I get a chance for an interview. As for Edward, I have told him that I am really waiting for an overseas job although I doubt I will get a call from Alan. I will not commit myself to Edward till the last minute.
The hottest topic right now must be web blog. How some people became celebrity for the online diary, how some get flaked due to their comments. For me, I will not care whether anyone read my thoughts as this is my thoughts that I want to record down. I will speak what my mind said and not bother what others think although I think certain sensitive topics should be avoided.
How is she today? Now that the cashier have left, she must be the cashier most of the time. Good for her since they are paying her by the hours. The more she work, the more she earns. I hope to get to work as soon as possible because maybe then I can get her out of my mind. I never forget the roses that I gave her on Valentine's Day. The 2 roses are made by me and wishing her that she will find her othe heart and make it a pair. I was not in love with her yet at that time, but the more time we spent together, the more she occupy my mind. It was not love at first sight but I have never doubt she is the first gal that sings to my heart beat. I may not have many girl friends before, but I know that I have never felt this way before. I have not sure how many roses I have made for her and where she threw those roses. Every rose that I have made have my thoughts in it, and I do hope she did not throw it away.
Later, it will be the final of Champion Leauge. And I will root for Liverpool to win. This will be a great moment to enjoy and I am going to buy lots of snack to keep me awake for the match. Go Liverpool! YOU WILL NEVER WALK ALONE!

Where the lights?

2005-05-24T00:00:00.000-07:00

23th May 2005 11.30pm
A few more days to my 30th birthday. Man, I old already.
I have been resting for the last whole week, watching vcds from night to dawn, day to night. I still thinking very hard whether to accept Edward's offer but I really love to work in overseas or try another career. I at my crossroad now. What can I really do? I have been in the F&B industry for the last 15 years and that all I know. Would I survive if I move to another industry? Or should I continue and believe that there is light at the end of darkness?
Too much to think and too little time to consider. That always been the case for my career. I never really sit down and think whether the future employer has the same goal as mine. If only I can have the answer from Alan.
I was at Pan Pacifi to take my leather shoe when I saw her on a bike with another guy. I bet it is her boyfriend and it looks like they are loving couple. Although her boyfriend should have ask her to wear a jacket or a better helmat when riding the bike. I never understand why people can ride the bike with improper gear. If he loves her, he should look into that. As much as your skills can be great, the other road users may not.
Seeing her on a bike again has only brings back memories of her being pillon of my Ducati. Everytime I sent her home, I wish the journey will never end so I will enjoy the moment of us together. I now know that it is impossible as much as I love to. I will miss the days we are together.

Internet Cafe

2005-05-15T00:17:00.000-07:00

21st May 2005 11.30pm
Well I am sitting in a internet game arcade in Marina South and this is the very first time I am using a public computer to surf the internet. I hope it is safe :p The reason is that I have left the company that I have slough for the last 5 years and my own PC is not fix yet so no place to go but the internet cafe to to check my mail box and of course to blog. Well most people that are in the internet cafe are playing LAN games that I will not understand but it looks fun to play online with so many players.
It had been a long 5 years with the company and especially the last 3 months. I have never expect to be treated with that kind of insults and humilations from the bosses. It is over though I hope the wine team will get stronger with what Janice wanted to achieve. I was given a farewell supper on the last night of my service from the wine team and I have never realize how much was I respected by them. From the bottom of my heart, I really wish them all the best, GALS & GUYS, I know that you are the most commited players I have come across better than the GM or the managers, so keep it up and make the wine programs the best.
Bala had just went back to work but I afraid that he will never be the correct person to work in the position not that I look down on him but he does not have certain requirementsto make it work like commitment, dedeication, hard work, etc. Still i love to see him do better than me if only mark is not in the equation.
I have not seen her for the last 5 days already and really wonder how is she. Have she recovered from her sickness? Is she more happy not to work with me? For me, the last 5 days, she has always in my mind. I have left her my blue jacket but I afraid that she has lost it. Have I expect that, yes. It is because I am never in her mind. Since I have left it to her, it is her to lose. She will never really take a look on me and bother about me right. Anyway the chance for us to meet again will be less, but like I have said before it will take me 2 life time to forget about her. All the best to you, dear.

Unlucky

2005-05-13T07:32:00.000-07:00

13th May 2005 11pm
Unlucky because of Friday the 13th? No, since my last input, I have been very unlucky.
Firstly my bike aka wife was push down by some stupid idiot in the car park. The carbon fiber crack, paint erode by the petrol, engine stuck, etc. I really have no idea who will do this crazy thing. I bet the repair and re-spray will cost me a bomb. Till now, my bike is not ready yet.
Next, I was played out/back stabbed by my two bosses; Michael and Angelo. The incident is so long that I do not even feel like talking/writing over it. And because of this messy issue, my resignation also become very messy, although I glad my last day is coming. And mark had turned me into public enemy no.1 with things he said to all the staffs. Well not that I care about how other think, I am more disappointed that Michael turned his back on me. 5 years that I have worked for the company and that how I was treated. When the sales go down and staffs start resigning, the damage will be too much already. I hope the bosses know that though they never learn their lesson in the 8 on the bay.
Me and her? Well things never improve but I think it got worse. Maybe I was stuck in clearing my works, I did not have much conversation with her for the last whole week. I really like to forget but it is never easy when she is the special someone. I have stopped sms her for the last week but still I can't shake her out of my mind. I close my eyes, stop for a breath, open my eyes, it is only her that I see. What is this? I don't know but I hope it will continue. Why? No answer, my heart just want it to continue. I really want to tell the whole world about my feelings and love for her therefore I going to write in my blog.
I maybe leaving or should I say that I hope to leave Singapore and work in other country to better my trade. One of my mentor is helping me to look for a job in China and I really hope to hear good new from him. If I leave Singapore and will not be able to see her how can I write? My feelings for her is real and true and base on these I could write my thoughts. I understand that no matter what I do for her I will never win her heart but then when you love someone, you will do it for her.
Better fix my computer at home so I can write my blog after I resign.
Pray for the world to have a better tomorrow.

Sick bug spreading!

2005-05-06T00:32:00.000-07:00

6th May 2005 12.30am
I must be very tired for the last few days because i did not write my blog for few days already. Usually that happens only when I am off, but now it looks like I stuck with 2 much things to do. :( It seems that bad things do not come alone. After WGS i thought i could have time to catch up with my back dated inventory but comes along that I have to assist Nik and Gopal in running the restaurant because Mark's wife is having high fever? He has not been working during the dinner shift for the last 3 days already. Hope his wife will recover soon.
My friend just email me that she is on 2 days MC. I hope that she is alright.
She also has been sick for the last 2 days but only get to see a doctor only yesterday. Now i think that she is really 2 sick to work. I am really in a crossroad where i wish i can care for her but then she is avoiding me? My heart ache everytime I see her coughing. I am really wondering can she take it. Please take good care of yourself as I am not going to be here long to help you.
And please tell all of your friends to take good care of themselves as the flu bugs are looking for their victims.

another fruitless meeting

2005-05-02T23:00:00.000-07:00

2nd May 2005 11p.m
Another meeting 2day among my team and Michael. It is not a very formal meeting though I trying to sort out certain problems that my team is facing. We all brought out the problems to Michael though i think he still do not really want to get involve with his partners. It is always in such cases that when the truth is there but the bosses can't handle it. Not that anyone wants to break someone rice bowl but the bosses should be the correct the root of problems. It is because of all people they are the only one can correct the person. Anyway, i glad that one of my team mate Bala is coming back from his injury. It good to have him back though I do not know whether will it make any difference to my job, but let just see because i may not be around anymore when he back. tomorrow i will have a meeting with mark after my lunch with the Italian trade. It will be what he said will decide whether i leaving earlier or later.
She is sick today but still come to work. We hardly speak today because i am engaged with lots of my works. I sms her to take care of herself though i will not be long to see her at all. Sometimes i really wonder where has it went wrong for me? I never seem to get it correct at all. At times i sense that she wants me out of her sight but then in another minute she can be nice to me. Was there any hints that she trying to tell me? I don't know and most likely will not be able to find out. Till now she has not sms be back, look like another sleepless night for me. *Sigh*

A damn long week!

2005-04-30T17:00:00.000-07:00

30th April 2005 4.30pm
it have been a long week and a tiring one. it been 5 days? that since i last wrote my blog. all because of the WGS and lots of preparation works (works which can advoid if planning are done nicely) To write all the events down will be a long story and long time. Many things have happened as well in course. Most importantly was I that I told Michael and angelo about Mark but what is the outcome? As usual, the wall of defence is high up and unbreakable. I realized this when we are into 20 minutes of our meeting. To make things smoother, I just continue to pretend. Could not bother to argue anymore because he always think he is right and we are wrong. (I admit wrong that i have said that Mark screwed up the glasses issue but then he still did not help out at all.) I firmly believe that anyone who can babysit or lick his balls will get his due rewards. Am I employed to run the wine program or to pamper him? I think I will never find out the answers. Back to the issue, we agreed that I and mark and angelo need to sit down to discuss on the restaurant. Due to the busy and tight schedule on that day, we all can't do it but i told angelo that i will talk to mark personally and then report back to him since he said i am a bastard. As usual, i put the events on the days more importantly than the meeting, so i did not do it with mark but before i knew it angelo have a private meeting with him alone and the next thing i knew was there was a very big dagger stuck on my back; ouch.
I can't believe angelo need to back stab me and i have finally give up and tendered my resignation . I am public enemy no 1 due to mark comment during the briefing. When the truth was told, they can't handle it; so why bother to speak about it then.
The last event of the WGS was in our restaurant, Penfolds dinner with Don Ditter. I was really glad that the 2 events that we are in charge turn out manificently (thought not the food). My wine team of Janice, Ian, Melissa and Poulis had done a great job throughout the events. Not to forget my great bar manager, Razman. without his support, i could have crumbled already.
THANK YOU GUYS, HOPE WE CAN WORK TOGETHER IN THE FUTURE AGAIN.
Will I ever leave her out in my blog? No, a firm NO. She looks stunning and if i was not occupied by my duties, I could have been lost to her beauty. I am really grasping for my breath everytime I look at her. That the reason why I never dare to look straight at her for the whole night. As I have said before, like a great wine, she will develop. She text me late last night (but i was already knock out) though i not sure whether she means it but i like to reply here to her;

Lonely does not means that you will be unhappy;
Lonely without you will be sad.
Own it does not means that it will last;
Losing it will last.
Lose it does not means you will own it again;
(really do not know how to answer this)
To own it again require hercule effort.
To walk away does not means a coward;
To walk away is to let you be happy.
To let go you will gain ease;
To let go is equally to let go of his soul.
Freedom is gain only if you forget;
Freedom is lost when I lost you.
Do you understand?
I never have understand the formula thus will never be able to solve the equation.

another day

2005-04-25T08:32:00.000-07:00

25/4/2005 11.40pm
this have to be quick and fast and short cos i have to rush to a meeting with my big boss in his house (pei meh)
what a long day i have 2day. i slept for around 3 hours and wake up at 5.30am. after that could not get back to sleep again (i must have been thinking about her all this time). Stomach call for food, so i went for an early breakfast. i did my workout routine when i got back and left for work around 8pm. while walking to MRT my hungry stomach decided a 2nd round. stop for a plate of wanton noodle and glad it was one of the best i ate for a long time. start doing my works at 9am and then i got hungry again so have a bun and tea before service. 3 breakfasts! i can't believe myself.
it the 1st day of WGS week and lot of preparations are done but be4 we knew, Mark had gave us the wrong info again. when can he learnt. Even then at night for the WGS's safari, where we host the 1st & 2nd course, mark still can make mistake i think a good GM should not make. Anyway let hope for the rest of the week will be better.
I finished pening the song 4 her and i told her about it just now. i hope to get some1 to fill the music so we can send it for the sing yao competition. but the song may have to alter to suit the music and let hope i can get it right. She have been great 2day, though i not sure how long this moment can last. well let me just treasure this moment.
Got to go if not big boss will get piss.

y liverpool lose

2005-04-24T07:26:00.000-07:00

24/4/2005 11pm
A slow sunday crowd as usual. but it good for me cos it give me the time to finish up my paper work, that is y the reason i every weekend i start works more early than the rest. (Pei meh)
was not a very good sat night cos my favourite liverpool lost to andy johnson (crystal palace) just why can't they be great or as least good in the premiership is a mystery worth solving. i hope they will beat chelsea and win the european cup.
the hottest topic in singapore now must be the casino/IR. Everyday since the government agree to build a casino, without failed the papers have a lot of things to write about. Personally, i hope it will be build so more jobs can be create but deep in my heart i know a lot of families will suffer cos of it. My dad is a heavy gambler who gamble away our family and he still do not know to stop. will the government help people when they become addict to gambling. There will good and bad things coming with the IRs, let just hope the bad are less.
Another long week ahead due to the WGS programme. let hope that the business will improve for this coming week. I still can't believe that an Italian restaurant featuring an australian chef who really do not cook italian cuisine and featuring all australian's wines for the WGS. what a pity that people are overlooking in Italy.
She will always be in my web log cos she has such an impact on me. will i not write her just for a day, no at least no till i leave the country or i stop writing my blog. i know i have given up hope but just will never 4get her. i hope to finish the songs so i can't sumbit for the sin yao competition but must find someone to compose. oh GOD, please let someone of this appear.

dreams

2005-04-23T23:56:00.000-07:00

23rd April 2005 going to 24th April 2005 11.45pm
Did not manage to catch a movie last night as the time of the movies are not good for me. maybe will try to watch a movie later. it the start of WGS today and i glad that i did not need to be there as it is really a uselss events. in fact, i think i make the right decision as the restaurant was quite bz and wines were sold. Not sure how did the WGS team did? GM-Mark must be very funny in waiter uniform.... 2bad Nik did not have a camera with him.
I was helping my team in holland V 2 do a wine luncheon 2day. as it was Mel's very 1st event and she was so tense over it that regardless whatever i told her she just could not get it into her heads. therefore it ended up that the wines and foods coordination part broke down badly. Gladly ppls enjoy the event so there wasn't much of a complain. I believe after knocking herself on the wall this time, she will grows. Keep it up, Mel.
I am really turning into an insomnic (correct spelling?) manage 2 force myself 2 sleep at 2.30am but when jaz came back and made so much noise, i could not sleep till i finish mel's event. i struggle on the bed for almost 5 hrs trying every means that i know 2 sleep. maybe i still having jet lag or i have been thinking about her. i bet is the latter though i will not admit 2 any1. i been telling myself 2 let go cos it the time. but everytime when i saw her, i get tangled. anyway i believe it should end soon as i hope i will be leaving Singapore for good. she knew about it, maybe that y she trying 2 be friendly 2 me though i think she is really forcing herself. well we would not have much time left.
if you do not have a dream, what makes you?
dream is for you to work 2wards to.
i have dreams and i am always driven to fulfil my dreams.
but now, i heading 2wards my dreamland.

A new start

2005-04-22T23:05:00.000-07:00

22/04/2005 11pm
I found this web blog today and decide this is my new start of web blog. y name vinification? cos i am vinifying my life :p
another bad hair day in restaurant. mark as usual is the culprit. did not plan well for the staffing and we are all hit by a full house lunch crowd. OMG! can't believe i have survived cos i hardly sleep the night be4 and was working out in the morning. when i was sitting down on my desk after lunch, i have difficulties to keep my eyes open. y can't my big bosses just take a look at mark and see whether is he capable of doing his role. well i should keep believing what goes around will come around.
the office is so cold (even now) that i bet the temp is around 10 degrees. must consider winter wear now. i could hardly sit down on the chair for more than 10mins and so my works are delayed. 2moro is another long day but yet i thinking of going 2 watch a movie later; ai i must have my own life, right.
2day is better than yesterday for she n me (or i just dreaming) we talk, laugh, tease each other but deep in my heart, i thinking that all these are just a show that both of us are putting up. for wat? do not know n will not wan to know. if this is the moment that i breath, then let this moment stand still even it is a dream. i have pen a song for her (not finish yet though) hope i can find some1 who can fill in the music... I told one of my new friend that i have already let it go but truly in my heart the chain just won't break. i wondering is it the same for her.
this will be a great new start!